So tonight, I decided to try and trace an old friend. I lost touch with Helena a long time ago. I moved a couple of times having split with my then partner (who she knew me with) and she has moved too, as her husband is in the army.

I remembered a mutual friend, and it's taken me ages - months - to remember his surname, but finally I did, and tonight I searched for him on Facebook. I found him! I've sent him an email rather than a friend request in case it's not him. But I know it is. We used to be really good mates, proper drinking buddies. Brings back so many memories!
His brother married a friend of mine. She wasn't a close friend, but everybody knew everybody else in that village. She died of skin cancer about 3 years ago. She was only young, 31 I think. She left two little boys behind. She still has a facebook profile, and a beautiful black and white picture of herself up. I still think about her sometimes.

Before I found Helena, I found Rob, my first love. That was strange. Especially to see pictures of him with his child and a wedding ring on his finger. I am glad he looks so happy. I fell out of love with him and broke his heart. I handled it completely wrongly at the time. I can see that now.

Anyway, I found Helena. She lives in Belize now - one of the few destinations on my 'places to visit before I die' list. She looks like a typical army WAG...tanned, mini dress, peroxide hair...she was always a bit crazy and there was always a little bit of me that was scared of what she might do sometimes....maybe she's mellowed with age though? We'll see I guess. Hoping I get a reply, and we can start the reminiscing!! And maybe I can even book myself a ticket to Belize :)