How strange, to read back to my last and only blog entry, now my life has changed so much. If only I knew then what I do now...not that I would have believed myself (if I could have gone back and warned me).

So here I am. Practically a single mum of three. My partner has left us after a rather turbulent two years. He left the army and has struggled ever since. And so have we.

We are not officially over, but I don't really see how or if we can recover. Maybe we will. He is in the bosom of his family, while I fight anxiety and stress to look after my three children. The hospital appointments, dentists, haircuts, feeding, clothing, bedtimes, cuddles are all down to just me now. Luckily I have some very wonderful friends. Friends who send me hugs in the form of Chocolate Tiffin, cards, texts, emails, hugs. They all mean so much to me. I don't think I've ever felt so blessed. I am rich with friends!

Mornings are worse. I wake, and the knot in my stomach tightens...and so begins the day. But I am also positive. Positive about MY future. I have been accepted on my next Open University course, so I'm on my way to starting a career working with children and young adults...in what ever form that will take. Because it's with the OU, I still have another few years study yet before I graduate :)

But I will get there. One day. Just you watch me!